判逆的青春期，我们的身边总是会出现这样或那样的坏孩子。我们真的了解他们吗？ Yep, you said it―I’m the “bad guy”―the one whose name resonates upon their lips when I’m not even there.
“Bad guy”, it’s kind of got a nice ring to it, isn’t it? So they sit around the dinner table, her and her folks, and her parents discuss my finer points―they warn their desirable against the undesirable, and they pray that I’ll stay clear―a few days, a few weeks―forever!
I know what her parents are like. I’ve heard them sitting up late at night, unaware that I was just in the next room. “How can we get Toni to dump such and such?” they had asked each other, all the while comparing me to a child at the checkout always screaming for more; condemning me as a silent stalker who just couldn’t let the relationship go. I mean, come on―’stalker’? Get with it!
Toni’s with me through her own choice, let’s get that sorted out real quick. And sure, we’ve split up, but it’s always been Toni who has done the begging, wanting me back. I’m irresistible, she knows it, I know it―it’s just her parents that don’t―their constant warnings, their pleading. It’s driving us both nuts. Can’t they see?
Toni doesn’t care about this negativity that has surrounded me. She doesn’t care about my past. She knows I’ve done shocking things and she knows how quickly I can turn dangerous, and I think that secretly it thrills her. But have we ever sat down and discussed all the bad exposure I’ve received? Have we ever spoken of the need for me to pull my socks up, turn around and begin life on a different foot? Has the sun ever shone brightly all night?
So I’ve upset a few people, let’s be honest, who hasn’t? And murder, sure it’s in my head all the time, but does that make me obscene? Not to Toni. She loves feeling me close, the way I feel on her mouth, my scent that lingers when I’m no longer there; I mean this girl really loves me. She’s sweet too. Only sixteen.
Toni has the silkiest honey-blonde hair and eyes the colour of turquoise, oh, and legs that just go on and on. So you get the point―she’s a nice looking chick. But, yes, I am going to hurt her. Eventually. I hurt them all. It takes time though―the slow introduction, the getting to know you period. I mean, if you put the pressure on straight away they run frightened. You’ve got to take your time. Trick them into thinking your care―few weeks, few months.
Eventually they work out they can’t do without you, and then you’ve got them. For life really―as short as their life may be.
Yeah. I’m the ‘bad guy’. Toni, doesn’t see it yet―oh, she knows of the dozens of different names I carry, for she’s searched for me on a shelf alongside my mates; and she knows I’ve murdered in the past, but still she grabs for me―pulling me from my packet, inhaling me deeply and then gently blowing me from her lips in a stream of silver haze. She loves me. She needs me.
Toni’s parents―they just don’t understand.
（责编：王莉娟）